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Near Death Experience or just a Dream?!

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I was really sick soon after I shifted from mumbai to kolkata for almost 2 months, with terrible stomach infection, body ache, and IBS, lost 7 kgs within those 2 months.

I don’t know if I had a near death experience when before going to sleep after sufferring terrible pain and shivering cold in hot n humid kolkata weather all day, and only after having medicines the pain subsided and I could sleep. It was on that very night I had experienced this and remember it very vividly.

I experienced my husband, my child and myself in a really huge water park, with no other human there. The water park could be the size of 2 or 3 football fields, it was pitch dark with only 1 light in the middle of a yellow steel rectangular shaped space built right in the middle of that water park, there were no other water rides, or activity. Only water and in the middle a rectangular yellow steel framed space to climb up or rest.

I had a thought that we 3 had come together but I was continuously searching for them moving around that rectangular steel frame. I kept moving in search of my child and husband and I could clearly see there was no one in that water park except me in completely dark n ill lighted space.

My heart was throbbing fast, I could sense it, and suddenly I clung to the yellow pole of that rectangular steel frame and this was the time I began rising upwards like a air ballon, I did not struggle much and left the pole and floated in straight up direction where I saw the water park clearly shrinking in size as I moved up and up slowly.

It was dark all around in air , no clouds and I think I was just 500 mtrs or little more above the surface of that water park. It was darkness all around that was frightening and fear took over as I struggled to fall down back into the water, but the more I struggled to move down, the little I floated up and more up, then I stopped all movements and realized I was mid air, stuck mid air.

It was darkness all around , no clouds, no stars, nothing. Just water park with little dot of light and dark space all around me. I did not look up, I looked around only that I remember.

It was then when I had stopped to struggle I was no longer in fear or uncertainity. I knew there was nothing coming to me or nothing happening to me from here, I was just hanging, floating mid aIr with eyes to see everywhere and it was only darkness.

There was nothing coming to harm me or nothing pulling me down or taking me up. It was the most saddest or painful situation to be where there was nothing.

Only nothing was with me with eyes open to darkness all around.

I don’t know if this is a near death experience or not but the space I was in, there was nothing to do or go away from. Into darkness a place where you could take nothing or get nothing.

Only mystery, not even peace or fear after all that.

One could be stuck there forever for eternity.

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There’s No Heaven & Hell After Death, Its just Nothingness !

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We are Humans with bodies, that breathe to live and do all other life like activities that combine together to form and enrich our existence with experiences that are embellished with a variety of  emotions like joy,happiness, pain, sorrow, love, hate etc.

The emotions decorate our moments  namely into two distinct portions of Positive Or Negative experiences of which we largely hold onto remembering them or segregating them into much more variants of emotional experiences of our lives.

I believe to experience anything in life we need to be alive and  live in the moment, which means to Exist , to see it to believe it , for this we require our bodies,to experience,record and register those moments and then to re frame them and label them with emotions that we have during those moments .

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Here it is very important to acknowledge the fact that in order to experience and feel certain emotions of some moments we require our bodies , if we have no body which is alive then how can we experience anything at all .

And with this belief i cannot believe in the Concept of Heaven and Hell after Death which many of religions tell us about, because to experience the angels and life of heaven we still require senses that are trapped only inside a living body, and even to experience the hot fire of hell we still  require to have a body which feels pain upon being pricked by the devils of hell.

So We require a body to experience Heaven and Hell after death !

Actually the whole concept is very confusing because when we live we have a body and so we experience everything but as soon as we die we lose this body thus losing our senses to experience anything which is around us.

Death is Emptiness , its complete Shunyata (zero) after life, there is nothing to experience nor to feel , forget Heaven or even hell , there is nothing to make us happy or sad, there isn’t a body to feel anything. What is gone is gone forever , its just the soul that circulates around like a dust particle only in search of a body to enter and get back to life again.

And it happens automatically not even the soul is in search it happens by itself , because there has been no longing or desire to relieve its just a process that has to be completed by its own.

As long as we live we are are full of experience , the day we die we are just nothingness.

Sweet Nothingness

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Now I am a complete homemaker, doing all the household chores and actually loving it, we have relocated to this new place and am liking it alot , it seems,  if just two people live under a roof there are so many things to explore and care for rather living with many people and just caring for self.

I like this life and completely in love with the amount of free time and space, its like a dream come true , for what i had always been waiting for , this is what i wanted all the time when i was busy all day doing my job , studies and home tasks. But now its a whole lot of freedom , with no studies no job and no framework for work .

Life is moving really nice and i can feel and sense the time that never flies rather its slow and steady and seems to me that its just what one requires in life that he she doesn’t need to run with time rather wait for the time to chime.

Time that flows slow is simply sweet and wonderful because it has nothing to do with materialism, moreover it has the qualities of disintegrating you into different forms where one can explore and discover a lot about life in its true forms , the real essence of it and true meaning that revolves around things that we forget to peep into.

Simple encouraging acts of small work or no work and just enjoying the environment in the present mood itself is quite enchanting experience because you are so much free , you have all the time to do something and to do nothing , this explorations of nothingness is beyond comparison where you can be just with you, there’s no running for being someone else like in your office shoes or  have makeup or to read some news.

Its just you and the time you have all the time even that you forget about time.

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