Yes ! this is what my Fiance did to his laptop quite literally, he broke the laptop into pieces in a fit of anger and frustration because we had some dispute and it was carried out in a chat session and i came to know of the destruction only when he messaged me on my phone about what had happened.
I was very unhappy and unstable, as i was apprehensive that now our relation would get sour because he would not be able to connect with the world outside nor would he be able to carry out his job search or any other things we usually do on the net be it for work or for personal reasons.
Think of the situation if your social account( Facebook, Twitter, LinkedIn, word press) had to be deleted for some reasons and when you know you can still have it despite of the moment that makes you do it, again it was your own choice, but think of it that, you did it , and you worry about your personal stuff that was gone and how much you wished to connect being a social person who loves to interact and connect and know about the world through virtual platform. But it disappears suddenly, when you were least prepared.
As i think about all these because you never know how deeply certain things are important for some people, you cannot know. And thinking that id been the reason for all this, affected me more,and i thought that our relation would surely not work out in days to come, and things wont get back normal so soon, because right now there’s a terrible financial crunch that comes being unemployed and he needs something to freshen up i always think.
Its hard to spend time doing things for someone who is out of job, the whole day you dont have any work and you look for things you could work and makes you feel content even if its job search doing it through the internet. I was afraid what would happen next. he is coping with this situation so well and he had this just one thing where he could share his thoughts through his blog http://arnabsinha.com/, but now he cannot even do that.
I was running with all these thoughts and the phone rang it was him, and to my utmost surprise i heard him all the more relaxed, cool and stress free more than ever he was since the last years. he called me up to say that he was actually feeling nice, So “FREE” and so happy to get rid of that laptop . He said he got all the more time to read books ( Hard Copy), go out for jogging, spend time with his friend, call up the other people on phone, write down his diary, come out with novel ideas for business, evolve strategy’s for getting jobs, and what not, he talked endless about what all he could do in absence of his laptop.
Again i thought this unbelievable, because if i had broken my laptop i would have been crying for months and months till i got a new one but still i would have been unhappy for all the personal data pics and other things i would have lost in because of destruction.
I still cannot digest the fact that how can anyone live without his laptop and having lost all the great stuff begins to feel richly, being out of touch with people and information for so long time and moreover he moves care free as if nothing had happened and he had lost almost nothing. the laptop was so insignificant, in a situation where he knows he cannot have it till the times he has a job and that too after his salary only he can buy a new one.
And i know he doesn’t pretend or show things, he is very straight forward and hides nothing about his feelings and emotions and always speaks the truth from the bottom of his heart. he is such a guy who never had a girlfriend, not even spoke to a woman in his 30 years of life, and as i say this and i can give it to you in writing also . For in the world today i cannot believe someone not having the girl or boy connection in any point of life.
I believe that he has gone a level up in his search for spirituality after destroying the connection with the virtual world and the day is not far when he will break his phone too and become a complete sadhu who can live peacefully without these essentials that we think as another necessities after food, home and clothes.
Sometimes i think that if i never had any of those gadgets in my life, i could be more free and will have more, much more, time to cook, play with my niece read more books, spend more time with my grandmother, do more chores, take up study courses, exercise everyday, write my diary,forget to care about my looks, live a stress free life, not care about my ex profile, get rid of seeing my glamorous friends everyday with their new pics, no news about friends getting married, seeing their pics of exotic honeymoon destinations, all the more i could do i think but, then this ‘but’ comes in between, and i think about all the changes that has been brought about by these gadgets in my life that cant be ignored.
It takes a lot of courage today to get outside the virtual world to afford a carefree life and being consistent with your consciousness, that should not interfere with thoughts that attracts you towards them. And am proud and happy that my love was able to break this and get out soon to enrich his life with spiritual encounters.
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